Holiday Blues
foggy mind, cold days
“Feelings of sadness that last throughout the holiday season — especially during the months of November and December — are often referred to as the holiday blues. The holidays are usually viewed as a time of happiness and rejoicing. But for some people, it can be a period of painful reflection, sadness, loneliness, anxiety, and depression.”
- Verywell mind
These days, on the holidays, there’s blue all over my mind. Controlling my body, sorrow whispers words of destruction:
“Nobody likes you! That’s why you’re lonely and will always be. Unless everything about you changes…Can you do that?”
Days go by and I try to be positive hoping to find a way to feel less hollow.But positivity isn’t enough to fill in this void.
Then, in the middle of the fog, I spot them: the ghosts of hardship.
Baby, it’s true: I don’t belong here.
Light in my life to make things right.
Ice, I‘m frozen by the fear of the future.
Cyan, I can’t see why no one’s here!
Through the shades of blue, clarity comes: no gifts, no feast can replace the absence of a kiss, a piece of affection I haven’t received.
If I had just one wish I would desire a rainbow so I can finally get through these hues of blue!
